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Sunday, June 28, 2009

i am superduper need a major rescue out there...

i wasnt in a good condition since last sunday....

having this pain in my tummy baby....

gosh....it is super extraordinarily unbearable....

it is time for me to report myself in the hospital and get admitted there....

omg...

i dont bother to tell my family about it after my mum went ballistic with me on friday...know what happened??

she only saw me n my guy...so whats the big deal???

not like as if she doesnt know that im still going on with him....

she is just a major pain in the ass....

and my sister such an I-pos!

know what is that??

it is...

IRRITATING PIECE OF SHIT!!!!

how dare she told my guy to heed what my mum wants and said they are lenient enough not to cuff me in when they are actually doing it!!

tell her just screw that little mouth of hers with her husband's dick....

and she also dont even know what my mum really wants..

how possible she wants my baby to do so....

my mum only want us to break up...

and that is so...not possible.....

and ive been acting she doesnt exist in my life for 2 days already...

im not trying to be rude and being unfair ok...

but i do have my own stand too....

if she cant accept the fact that im going on with a tattoo guy....then, i wont be able to accept the fact she wants me to break up.....

and my mum hinting me ok...

"you really wannabe with him is it?"

ha!

of cos i do...but what can she possibly do??

she cant possible said you can be with him as much as you want as long as you finish your studies...

what she is trying to tell is....if i said yes directly to her face that friday....

she will simply kick me out of the house...

and that is exactly what i need.....

thanks alot mother.....

WORDS FOR

1) MUM

in case you really throw me out of the house....please dont acknowledge me as your child anymore ok? and i got my stand...and this is it....

thanks for all your efforts for raising me up....with love and care...but this is not the treatment that i want....u give me everything....love....care...concern...trust..but...only one thing i cant get from you....and that is being an understanding mum...

only if you can change a little bit like what you expect from me...you will understand why im still out with this guy...bcos y?...i will be able to explain to you....about him..his background...his family...only if you able to control your temper...i will bring him to see you and talk...but you dont....you're still the way you are...if you cant be a role model for me to change for the better....

i wont be able to change too....

just want you to remember the first few line i said,mum...

i love you mum..

i never hate you....

2) SIS

sister...if you wanna know....you get things straight out from me ok? you only heard stories from mum...all bad things that you hearr from her...but do you even care to ask me about my relationship with him? do you even care to ask me how happy am i to be him? you have never ask me sister...

and why you bother telling all that to my guy when you dont even know the whole story?

it is true what you said....you've went through all ups and downs during my age now...

so, let me be will you?

you're no better enough when now you're status is MARRIED!!!

so dont dare messing around with other people's love life when you need some maintenance to be done too....

you're not being rude to anybody at all sister...but just bear in mind...if you only listen to one side of the story...you will never know how true can it be....

be true to yourself first sister...

thats the only thing i can tell you....

3) DAD

dad....thanks for the shelter and all the pocket $ you provide me....

but, to me..that is your responsibility to provide me with that...but it is not your responsibility to make decisions for me..like mum did...

none of you has the power to decide for me...except me, myself...

you can only guide me to the right path...but when it comes to making decision....all of you can only give me your opinions and views...

but the final decision lies in my hand....

and the consequences im gonna face alone....

and that is not from me....

it is from the one who create my life this way....

and that is ALLAH.....

im sorry for saying this way...

but this what im gonna say...

i will wait for another 3 years....

the age where i should have my freedom to breathe and spread my wings.....

by 21...if im gonna get the same treatment....

i will leave all of you for good....

im so sorry....

5:55 PM **

Saturday, June 27, 2009

this was ydae!!

happy 1 year 2 months BABY....

i love u alot!!!!

got him that flower with a bumble bee bear...

at bugis with him.....then....samthing bad happened after that....such a bitch!!!

below here...was on the monday...went bugis with my baby....then, slack with the girls at bedok till nyt......

we are totally into something deep lately....hahah.....i wish it is true.....

and this....was last saturday!!!!

darus!!!!

hendra's cousin.....

happy bdae to danisha!!!!

i wanna have a princess bdae cake too....

this was on the 17th June......

pose for me please baby orchid!!!!

i took the scenery...cos im visualising smthg deeper in it....hahahah.....it is just a dreamland of mine and amdan's.......

in kkh....my ward...the painting was damn beautiful....

its been a week plus perhaps.....n im back to update my blog.......hahahahaha......sorry for the inconvinience....hope this lil piqs....can keep all of u updated.....

11:55 AM **

Friday, June 19, 2009

hehehe.....met my baby on wednesday!!!!after so much complaining to him and begging him to come.....he made it on that day....heheheheh.....farah is such a whiner!!!!!

well....been busy with attachment this week and next week...but omg!!!!another week to go.....that was fast right????i cant believe it either....but hopefully, it will go faster than this cos im dead tired!!!!!hahahahaah........my back pain...my neck pain...but i enjoy playing with the kids....i will miss them a lot after attachment...especially baby G!!!haix.....i love them all...

1:29 AM **

Saturday, June 13, 2009

before my last paper ydae......

i went to henderson waves with my guy!!!! adne here we go....

up the stairs....down the stairs....up the hills....down the hills.....

well....my attire is not suitable for the acitvity...but how am i supposed to know that the place gonnabe that bad but perfect for hiking!!!!

well...lina.....i took a piq of ur making out place....i hope you dun mind about it..heheheh

the scenery from the mid level....

and here we are!!!!

the henderson waves!!!

we almost got lost in the "jungle" or more likely the mini forest...hahahhahha...but we managed to reach our destination!!

it was heaven!!!!!

cos....atlast!!my dream come true again!!!!!

hahahaha...my baby said.....it was fun..especially the walk.....cos i can feel the muscle in my legs are straining!!!

heheheehhe.....so weak of him!!!!

cool huh????

so....people???

when are we going to get our butt off the seats n go hiking for a healthy lifestyle???

hahahahah.....

when...it is during the night time..it is very nice!!!!

sweet place to relax....

and...well.....what else???

IT IS CAMWHORE TIME!!!!!!!

i was perspiring in and out!!!!

and top to bottom!!!!

hahahahah......serious2...no kidding!!!

peace yaw!!!

my intention was to lean on the wall...but i cant..hehehe...so just pose whatever i can do.....

muax!!!!

hehehe....i swear i didnt make him do this!!! it was him who wants to take piq qith that pose...

hahahahah.....

wanna take him in for FHM or MAXIM, anybody???

nah...better dont.....think twice before you take him in to be in the magazine cover page.....

"i take your picture, b.......

and you take mine...okok???"

the heart shape cloud...

it was...seriously...but it slowly dispersed....

emo farah...hahahaha

i love you hubby baby....no matter how many time we had an argument....

i still love you...and stay strong for the good of our r/s......

when we are going back...we took the last snapshots of the henderson waves from the bottom....

then...we went to bukit merah to eat.....n off to pandan gardens.....den im off to school...for my last paper......

and later that evening....met him at jurong west...ate for dinner......

and slack around....

hehehehe.....

"f" u baby....heheheheehh

hahaha...that is all for the week i guess!!!!

12:44 AM **