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Monday, August 31, 2009

I CANT GET THINGS OUTTA MY HEAD!!!

CAN SOMEBODY PULL ME OUT BEFORE I KEPT ON DROWNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RED ALERT FOR ME BEFORE MY HEAD BURST!!

REALLY, PEOPLE....I MAY SEEMED HAPPY WITH HIM LAST FEW DAYS...

BUT ONLY HIM AND I KNOW WHAT WE WENT THRU ACTUALLY.....

HELP ME OUT!!!

I DUN WANNA STICK AND JAMMED IN THIS DILEMMA ANY LONGER...

IT IS HURTING MY MIND....

IT IS HURTING ME....

IM DROWNING IN THIS THREATENED SEA WHICH MAKE ME FEEL SO ANXIOUS AND PANIC...

REACH OUT YOUR HAND FOR ME PLEASE...

AND PULL ME OUT BEFORE I REALLY DRIFT AWAY HELPLESSLY IN MY OWN DARKNESS....

9:19 PM **

SINGAPORE XTREME CHALLENGE 2009(SXC '09)

Above piq: was taken on friday night...i look...naked??

nah...i was wearing a tube dress thats why...

hee....

ON THE SATURDAY:

baby cam pose!!!

lolx....he really looked funny wearing helmet...

bt hu cares??

safety FIRST!!!

bmx riders from our neighbouring countries....

my 2nd ex allowed me to hold on to his shades....so i wear it till he ask for it back..

even amdan said the shades is cute...

hahahah..

i really looked like a clown...hahahha....

only my 2nd ex that amdan can talk to n mingle with...unlike my 3rd who was there too at ecp...eeuw....so snobbish!!!

**videos awaits u....**

8:52 PM **

Sunday, August 30, 2009

SINGAPORE XTREME CHALLENGE 2009 (SXC '09)

before the bmx competition...

we had the skaterboarding competition first...

so....well...not much to take...cos im saving up my phone batt for the bmx piqs n videos...

hee....

7:33 PM **

pictures of ydae SPORE XTREME CHALLENGE 2009 (SXC '09)

pictures are randomly uploaded....so enjoy browsing thru.....n all of u can imagine how fun i had ydae.....

above pictures:hehe....amdan getting ready to warm up...bfore the competition starts...

this guy up here...is from indonesia...he is cute cum cheeky...but..haha...

HE IS MARRIED!!!

oops...

above piq: u go SUNNY!!!make MSIA proud!!!

hehe...thats my babyboy...cycling up!!

hey, is that okke??i cant remb hu was it..but looks like him...lolx..

dts the way,dude!!

the 2 piqs above: amdan flying with his bike!!

wee!!!!!

lolx.....

5:34 PM **

farah aka wani n cuzzie, irah

on the friday...went down to ecp....for the practice run for all bmx riders...skaters n bladers...woohoo!!!

met all the msians and indonesians n filipino n thailanders bmx riders..

they r just a bunch of hooligans....

but in a funny way...

gosh...they r fun people....i swear i had a whole good time with them n my guy....n my cuzzies...ahahaha...
will b updating the rest soon peeps!!!

keep on waiting....

3:36 PM **

Thursday, August 27, 2009

exams finally over!!!well...it was tough for the past 2 days...but hopefully, i pass all papers...and proceed to the next semester and that will be 2.1...haix...damn....

now...im ready for my 4weeks of attachment...haix....boredom...

lolx...

well, basically today...after my last paper....met my hubby at west mall to catch FINAL DESTINATION 4....

TITI...I HOPE U READ THIS....

NEVER WATCH FINAL DESTINATION 4..cos it only make ur butt hot on the seat!!!

it is so...not interesting....quite bored compared to the previous 3 FINAL DESTINATION...haix...

after that, we walked around and went to JURONG WEST....to buy food for our break fast....

we walked from west mall to jurong west...it was tiring an dwhen we reached...we settle down first...and i actually fell asleep for abt an hour....hahaha....n i actually drooled..eeuw....that was simply DISGUSTING!!!!!!!!!

at about 5 plus, we bought food at the BAZAAR RAMADHAN....and settle down under a block while waiting for time to break our fast....WOOHOO!!!!

it was a satisfying meal.....cos my tummy bloated like as if i stuff my lolly the pillow underneath my spaghetti strap.....

lolx.....

well, after that....we talked...laughed...then, head to the place where my hubby plays SEPAK TAKRAW with his friends...sat there up till 9...n off we go to lakeside mrt stn....n separate at jurong east mrt stn....

well...amdan get off there uc...n i continued my journey to bedok as per usual....

hahaha...

hubby, i cant wait to see u "FLY" with your bike this saturday at ecp for the bike comp!!!

no worries....i will try not to laugh at u if u fall...hee....

i love u hubby....thanks for making my day worthwhile with u today compared to the other days when we had slight arguments....

muax!!!!

i miss our sweet moments....

10:27 PM **

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

im simply...bored.............

keep on arguing for NOTHING!!!!

and he blamed me for crying under his block....just bcos his sister in law's niece happened to see me crying down there...

u noe why he was mad???

bcos..he IS AFRAID THAT HIS SISTER IN LAW'S NIECE will tell HIS BROTHER N FATHER....

AND HE AFRAID THAT HIS FAMILY WILL THINK NEGATIVELY OF HIM.....

for treating me BADLY..

i mean...if he did something wrong....he shud own up...and take the responsibility....dun u think so???

the STUUUUUUUUUUUUUPID thing was....

we argued....

1) I WALKED SLOWER THAN HIM...my reason is...my heels arent in a good condition...and the floor was too slippery for me to walk fast than usual....

2) HE SAID I DUN WANNA TALK TO HIM....n that is BULLSHIT!!!! my reason is...if i dun wanna talk to him...y wud i bother text him asking him where he is.....after he vanish from my sight???

3)WHEN I TEXT HIM..."WHERE ARE U NOW??"

HE REPLIED "OTW HM"

I TOLD HIM, "DEN, I CAM OVER"

HE SAID AGAIN, "HM"...

AND I ACTUALLY WALKED FROM WEST MALL TO HIS BROTHER'S PLACE!!!

and i cried waiting him there....n u noe WHAT?????

he DID NOT ACTUALLY OTW HOME!!!

when i said...."bb...i really need to talk to u..."

he replied,"den come down fast...if not i will walk to the mrt..."

I SWEAR I WAS DEVASTATED....

but thank god.....i dun actually SHATTER HIS REPUTATION for MAKING ME CRY....

it was HE, HIMSELF DID IT....

ALLAH IS FAIR.....

the moment i reached his bro's place...and cried....his sister in law's niece came down...n saw me....she took my number n amdan's number...

n called him up....

n dat is when...amdan text me saying that "great!bcos of u....my fam.called me up n ask me what i did to u till u cry at the void deck!!!n now they will think negatively about me ok!"

well....in the first place...if he did not lie to me...things wont turned out this way...

n when he reached....he told me...."from west mall....u r able to walk up until here...u have the strong will to come here..y?"

simple as it is...i told him.."bcos u said ure otw hm....dts y.."

n he tried to cover up his ass by saying"if i really did that, u shud b able to see me outta the library...but u didnt rite?

as easy as it is..i said"hu noes u sneak away n took the lift down so i wont b able to chase after u"

n we actually laughed at our own FOOLISHNESS.....

haix....but seriously, this few days....he has been in major mood swings...but im not surprised...cos it has been that way for a long time...

as my menses coming....he will be the one hu suffer from PRE MENSTRUAL SYNDROME...

so unfortunate...

haix....

11:02 PM **

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

"i just dont have any idea...how else can be done to gain dollars in my wallet....im so worried sick bcos of him...but he is not doing anything to it....how can this be??

i told him time and time again...

seek help from somebody n go to the hospital...to get his medications but he refused...

i told him to use his medisave...but he insisted not to use it either...

hubby, if u arent doing anything to it...i will do something about it...

no way i m going to see u suffer this way...

cos it hurts me million time in my heart....

i told u...if i dont get hurt physically, i will get hurt mentally n emotionally....but if i do fall sick, that will add in to your pain...

i really hope that he think about this matter carefully....

when i am sick...hubby, u always tell me to pray hard to ALLAH and always remind me to eat my medications....

when i hurt myself, u always scold me...

but now....when u r sick...i told u to do what can be done...but you refused....

i just have no option left for u hubby....

but i will try to gain money in any ways....

i hope....whoever has the heart to hear me out....will b able to help me think of ways to gain money...

cos my idea wont be a good one for anyone to hear....

so please......

im begging all of you to help me out....."

8:49 PM **

haha....ydae when im reaching home...

i took piq of this cat first...

it always under my block with a friend of the same colour...

haha...they are just simply, cute!!!!!

just wanna add in to my randomness...

lolx....

10:54 AM **

Monday, August 24, 2009

ON SATURDAY:

i went out with my mum....break fast with her and just walk,chat and laughed....

it was damn tiring...but we do enjoy the walk home from bedok interchange after that...

hahahaha....

it was so funny when she joked about this uncle who digged his nose with his head going round n round n round....

hahahahah...

haix...

see this picture carefull....

u will notice a rainbow...

i wish that my life has all the colours back...

cos i know.....my life is turning grey already and soon will be black 1 day.....

on SUNDAY:

nah...i aint studying...lolx...

just the job fair guide book...lolx...

but it seems like im studying....

well...if u noticed....he wasnt fasting...

thats the thing...

hee....thats all....

"why did i apologise to him when he actually dont deserve it at all...not even 5o% of it...perhaps...it has been my nature to do so...but please.....truthfully, it wasnt worth a million dollars for APOLOGISING to him....

bcos....he said " makin lame aku rase macam aku ni makin sial kau tahu tak?"

translate: "as days passed by....i feel like shit dya noe dat?"

but if he feels that way...what does it has to so with me???

is it me who make him feel like one??

but what have i done to drive him into that kinda situation??

he also ought to know that....i told him to do something...and the thing he fulfilling wasnt MY NEEDS...it is HIS....

so....what is the matter with him...

but truthfully, no matter how many tears i shed...

he will still have his stand....

im tearing up right now....but what can i do besides crying??

i know...pray to ALLAH....i did that every now and then....

but still....

there seems to be no improvement in him....

sometimes, i feel sick of this relationship....

but most of the times....i feel like in cloud 9....

but, when it comes to this matter where he doesnt want to apologise...and admit it is his fault....i feel so frustrated and feel like killing him.....

i swear...i feel like killing him...

i just duno why......i wish he understands what im trying to say...but all he does is just going against me.....so what is left for me??

i cant have my say....i cant show him attitudes...

how else to tell him that im against him???

im just a stupid, helpless bitch.....

serious speaking...

im one.....

haix...."

2:06 PM **

Friday, August 21, 2009

woke up early morning